aria: ([thor] loki liesmith)
( Jun. 11th, 2013 01:15 pm)
In an effort to become an actual human with an internet presence and hobbies and other good things, I'm blocking out time during each day to get some writing done! And, in a stunning twist, when I do this, I actually get things written! Today's offering is about Frigga, because as we all know I will never ever be over this stupid Asgardian family.

I know these bones as being mine, Frigga, young Loki and Thor. "He is not our ward, Frigga, he is our son."

It turns out I have a LOT of feelings about Frigga! Team many scenes of Frigga in Thor 2.
aria: ([doctor who] river fucking song)
( Jun. 4th, 2013 09:50 am)
So WisCon happened! As usual, it was absolutely lovely, although this year I went to fewer panels than I intended; on the other hand, much of the con involved me playing host to [personal profile] filia_belialis and [personal profile] such_heights, since it was their first time at WisCon. We had lots of meals together, and impromptu room parties, and it was delightful. (We may have officially called our room the Tom Hiddleston Recovery Unit, but there wasn't so much recovery as just lots of yelling about him/Tilda Swinton/the Avengers cast/the Doctor Who cast/&c. Also [personal profile] oliviacirce hid behind lots of imaginary pillars.)

The con in more detail, cut for length! )

I think this about covers it! Although in more serious news, usually I do WisCon and come out of it feeling energized, and pleased with myself, and like I've recharged for another year of normal things before it comes around again. Not so much this year! I was low-energy enough that I felt a bit like I needed twice the usual time to even sink properly into the con spirit and relax enough to enjoy myself. It was also a reminder of all the things I like, and something like a punch to the face about how I'm not doing the things I like, at least in my dumb not particularly rewarding day job. Which is really great, actually, in the sense that instead of feeling like an affirmation this year con felt like a wake-up call, to go out and try to make the rest of my life more like the stories I want it to be again.
aria: ([doctor who] van gogh tardis)
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( May. 22nd, 2013 12:38 pm)
Okay, I'm going to be at WisCon for the next five days (!!!) which means if I don't make this television post now, it's never going to get made. And so! TV I have watched & have feelings about!

Community, spoilers through the finale, shruggy but positive )

Doctor Who, spoilers through the finale, kind of ambivalent )

Elementary!! spoilers through the finale, unmitigated joy )

In addition to these, Polaris and I have also been watching Person of Interest, Polaris because a friend highly recommended it, me because now that astolat has moved on from Thor/Loki porn to Finch/Reese porn my life has been a barren wasteland and I wanted to be able to read her porn again. (I do things for good serious intellectual reasons.) We love it a whole lot?? We're only at the beginning of season two, and the beginning of season two hit me in the face with MACHINE FEELS, which will now live with my Fiiinch feels, and my John-Reese's-stupid-face feels, and my Caaaarter feels, and my ongoing dedication to Amy Acker and Enrico Colantoni. So uh that's been great? And I'd totally write the dystopia-with-robots AU, or the Batman AU, except I don't even need to.

All of this actually fails to be a rundown about what I'll be yelling about at WisCon, because what I'll be yelling about at WisCon is Avengers, as always. I don't think I need to do a Care & Feeding post, if only because I haven't done one in years past but have managed just fine, but: Amiel and I will be arriving tomorrow noon! If any of y'all are already in the area, hit us up and we'd be happy to do pre-con hangouts. :DDD
Summer!! Everything is a riot of green, and the air feels thick, and we keep having blazing sunlight punctuated by torrents of rain. I'm sure by late June I'll be wailing about how I can't stand the heat -- and my sleep is already much more restless, seriously, my body hates heat -- but at the moment it feels like a lovely change. Plus I get to wear skirts and shorts and dresses and tank tops! Yeeeeah summer clothes.

Work feels much less stressful now that -- that it's summer, or identifiably the most stressful single thing in my life, I don't know. It feels very doable, which is nice! I've been entertaining myself by playing Marvel Bingo, otherwise known as the little ping of happiness I get when a customer's name is shared by a character. I've had Tony, Steve, Bruce, Natasha, Nick, Maria, James, Erik, Jane, and (Baldur) Thor, although bafflingly no Clints or Phils or Darcys yet. I've had Virginia and Margaret, along with lots of variations though none of them Peggy, and Elizabeth and variants though no Betty, and I'm not holding out for a Pepper even though there was that guy named Shark once.

Baldur Thor is no longer my very favorite, though, because last week I rung up a woman named Laufey. I now will not rest until I've collected the entire Norse pantheon!! (Terrible life choices.)

I've finally stopped dithering about and showing Housemate K the Angel/Buffy crossover episodes from the first two seasons of Angel, and we've officially embarked upon season six. I'm gonna ... very judiciously edit, for my own self-care, although I think the only one we're actually tapping out of entirely is Hell's Bells. Possibly we'll do Once More With Feeling tonight! And meanwhile I've given up on basically all other tv except Elementary and Warehouse 13 with Polaris, because PERFECT SHOWS ARE PERFECT, or at least mostly perfect, and if I need a break from Buffy I might do judicious rewatches.

Also WisCon is in three weeks! I feel a little bit like I'm carefully pulling myself from one nice thing to the next -- post-work telly-watching with K! adventures with [personal profile] scribe this coming Friday! out-of-town friend visiting next weekend! WISCONNN -- but I also feel like that's okay right now, and a lot better than I was doing, and honestly if I have a series of bright points to head towards, that feels much nicer than the tired determined slog.
aria: ([woe] fetal position)
( Apr. 15th, 2013 04:24 pm)
It occurs to me I should post this to all platforms, so: I'm checking in from the greater Boston area, and I'm absolutely fine, as are many of my friends who have also checked in. I'm terrified I'm forgetting someone, though, so if you're Boston-adjacent, please let me know you're okay. <333
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As usual I open the update window, stare at it, and wonder how I used to update nearly every day in college. (This may be rhetorical; the answer is that in college I was much more in the habit of constant writing, and tumblr drift wasn't a thing, and also my life had more variety, or maybe this winter has just been crushingly awful. I should possibly make a resolution to post every day? Habits!) I'm sure I have exciting life things to talk about, but fuck it, I've been up since four this morning, and it's been 2009 since I last did this meme, which means I can do it again!

21 first lines of fic in reverse chronological order. )
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aria: ([avengers] thor)
( Mar. 21st, 2013 04:24 pm)
So I had a post to make about ... real life updates and navel-gazing and things? But this is not that post! This post is about how I am HAPPY because [a] this weekend is MUSKRAT JAMBOREE, which means I'll be hanging hopefully around the hotel and trying to have fanpeople meetups, and [b] I ... have watched the first episode and a half of Vikings? and OH WHOOPS I LOVE IT.

I yelled at Amiel about how much I love Vikings, and this is a transcription! It is spoilery, and mostly about how ridiculous I am when I like a thing. )
I feel sort of like I'm doing the mental equivalent of that Unfuck Your Habitat thing -- my physical habitat is super unfucked! I brush the cats, I sweep and dust! I'm really excited for warmer weather because soon I shall fling open all the windows and do a deep-clean of the apartment! -- but I keep feeling massively stressed. Some of it is stuff entirely outside my control, of course, but I'm getting better at identifying the stressors and taking care of those, one thing at a time.

For example, this morning I registered for WisCon and got a room! Right now the going plan is to room with my sweeties and [personal profile] such_heights, so exciiiiited. (I also bought a dessert ticket, because Jo Walton. ...I should perhaps read some of her stuff besides Among Others before the con.) I even called up the hotel and registered by phone, by speaking to another human being and everything, and it was okay. Somehow in the last five years I've become the sort of person who does not panic every time she needs to make a phone call, oh wow my endless relief.

Also, I have finally figured out the answer to my tumblr problem. (My tumblr problem, in this case, being that there is no way I can actually manage to keep up with it given the other more important commitments in my life and the fact that I don't have job that involves downtime in front of a computer.) The answer to my tumblr problem: don't even try to stay caught up! Just look at some stuff, reblog some stuff, wander off, and then go back to the new first page next time! It is less freeing than I want it to be, because I'm still a bit OCD about completing things, but this still seems like the wisest choice.

Meanwhile I have also been watching some TV? I'm very bad at keeping up with most of it! Plus Polaris and I are watching every Bond film ever (ALMOST DONE!) and I'm showing Housemate K all of Buffy (halfway through s2 now!) because she's never seen it. Even so, I have been watching:

Community! Spoilers do a quick overview of the season so far. )

Elementary! Spoilers mostly just gush about Lucy Liu. )

White Collar! Spoilers are mostly me nattering about whether Neal is sleeping with the Burkes yet. )

Also, the Buffy rewatch is DELIGHTFUL. Housemate K adores Spike and Dru intensely, as well she should; meanwhile I'm mostly just really excited to watch her reaction faces, as we're about ... three episodes from Innocence right now. GOOD TIMES.
Woke up to a tweet from Polaris that said Look, I found the perfect Valentine for you and linked me to a tumblr post with the following text:

blood is red
love is redder
ur morally accepted ship is good
but incest is better

Guys, my BFF is a lovely human who mocks my ridiculousnesses in the best possible way. Happy February 14th, I guess! The housemates and I are breaking out chocolate cake this evening and hopefully just hanging out for a bit, and that is in fact exactly the way I want to spend Valentine's Day, because unsurprisingly, proscriptive heterosexual narratives are not my jam, and I love my friends, and also I love cake! (I did buy a nice card that is not explicitly couple-y, and I'm going to give it to my sweeties tomorrow, but, y'know, in the spirit of Lupercalia, as you do.)

Also, hell, this meme is going around, and it looks like fun: Let's play this game where you guess my favourite tropes and fictional character types.

I ... doubt much guessing will be involved. But you get no points for incest, Polaris already lampshaded that one.
+ The other weekend Polaris and I had a few friends over to eat baked goods and nominally celebrate our belated birthdays. Tasty food was consumed! We are now the happy owners of several new books, fancy candles, and an Inspector Spacetime poster! We also cobbled together a DYI version of Cards Against Humanity, excising all the cards that were gender essentialist or potentially rapey, and adding several fandom cards. Perhaps the best submission of the evening was "[Frost giants] are a slippery slope that lead to [black holes]," which is such a great summary of Thor that Emma was an instant winner.

+ Last night Polaris and [livejournal.com profile] paper_tzipporah and I went to see Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters, fortified with tiny bottles of booze, as one does. We started edging toward the back of the tiny theater when I noticed that the other people there seemed to be talking happily in the way one does at fangirl parties, so I asked them if they minded us sitting just behind them and heckling. "Of course not, that's what this movie is for!" was the general consensus; and then we all made Avengers jokes, and when I came back from my pre-film bathroom break everyone was talking the Hobbit, and of course the lovely people sitting in front of us turned out to be local fanpeople, and we all at least recognized one another's handles and/or fics to some degree, and it was DELIGHTFUL. The movie was great too, I guess? It was TERRIBLE, and full of incest and cartoon gore and gleeful joy at its own awfulness. We laughed the whole way through, and went out for cupcakes for afters. AN EXCELLENT EVENING, is what I'm saying here.

+ Work continues apace. Some days I am full of RAEG and some days I'm quite happy to be there, and goddamn, I can now make you any caffeinated drink you desire! The excellent thing about work is that standing up for eight hours is ... actually kind of good for my back? I utilize all my back muscles and don't hunch, anyway, so my posture is pretty great; that plus walking to and from work, and the occasional carrying of heavy things, means that I've got actual muscles and may be in good shape! Which is pleasing and exciting, and makes me like my body a whole lot even though I suspect I objectively look the same as I usually do. (I mean, the queer haircut helps too! The queer haircut is great every day.)

+ I seem to be reading Les Mis! I have read it once before, but that was in high school, and I recall doing a lot of skimming to get to what I thought was the Good Parts Version. This time I am not skimming! I read every word of how great M. Myriel is! I read all about the year 1817, and also every jerkass thing Fantine's horrible boyfriend said! It remains to be seen whether I will actually get through all of Waterloo; right now I'm in the middle of Valjean's crisis of conscience re: whether to reveal he's Jean Valjean. His cart is broken! His horse cannot be ridden! Everything is going wrong but STILL HE DOES THE RIGHT THING! I love this book a lot? I love Javert most of all, though; there may or may not soon be coming to a post near you all my really, really fervent Javert feelings. At the moment they mostly seem to be coming out as late-night tweets where I yell JAVEEEEERT, but I'll try to also cobble together something more articulate.

+ Avengers fic: one part complete, next three thoroughly outlined, Thor and Bruce currently making awkward spaghetti. :D
aria: ([buffy] whiteboard communication)
( Jan. 30th, 2013 12:33 pm)
i. The Words and Deeds Love Meme, which looks really wonderful. My thread is here, though screening is currently on, so I don't know whether it will be visible right away.

ii. So flist/circle! Which of you are going to Muskrat Jamboree this year? I am ... not, actually, because my work schedule is incompatible with a weekend-long party right now, but Cambridge is my back yard, so I would totally stop by the Saturday of the con and hang out with you! I don't know how strict MJ is about people without badges just hanging out with friends rather than trying to get into panels, so I might end up lurking hopefully outside the hotel. But let me know if you're coming! It would be delightful to meet up. :D
aria: ([misc] cocoa)
( Jan. 25th, 2013 12:11 pm)
Today I was ringing up a woman who gave her name as Annie. "Like the little orphan, I guess," this Annie said. "Actually," said I, "I associate that name with the character on Community; have you seen it?" She was familiar, she said, but only because her roommate watched it, so I explained a bit about Annie Edison, with great enthusiasm, while I got her change. "Okay, sold," Annie said. "I'll totally check it out." VICTORY!

Unrelated to Annie, a protip: if you don't deign to get off your fucking phone whilst ordering coffee, your barista may be smiling, but they will probably also be harboring warm fuzzy thoughts of totally murdering you right in the face.

I don't ... actually spend a lot of time at work imagining barista AUs, but the Avengers one would be so easy. Like, Nick Fury owns the coffee shop, obviously; I don't know what the coffee shop is called, because I can't think of any coffee-related puns with the word "shield" in them. Whatever. Coulson and Hill and Natasha run shifts; Clint has been there longer than Tasha, and got her hired, and watched starry-eyed while she got promoted, and may or may not be dating her. The other baristas are Steve, art student; Bruce, PhD student who works weekends; Janet, who hates the part where she has to get coffee for her asshole ex-boyfriend Hank every morning; Loki, who got Frigga in the high school divorce and needs this job to pay for college; and Thor, who got Odin in the divorce and could totally be a junior partner at dad's company but is rebelling in what Loki thinks is the most irritating way possible by working at the same stupid coffee shop. Tony, obviously, is that one regular who flirts with absolutely everyone (especially Natasha and Bruce) despite the fact that Pepper meets him there half the time. And I guess this coffee shop is near a school with a good science program, because Jane is obviously also there, and has recently become a regular in order to stare at Thor more frequently. (Darcy endorses this.) Uh so probs Reed Richards uses it as his local too, and ... probably the X-Men are around too; Charles and Erik play chess in the back room every day. And I'm going to stop now! But this AU would be SO EASY, whee.
I am still alive?? Perhaps my new year's resolution should have been "Have any online presence at all that is not twitter;" twitter, it turns out, is really easy to keep up with when you have a smartphone, and also stupidly early mornings during which most sane people are still asleep and not posting. I realize it's perfectly acceptable to not be on tumblr all the time, and only update my DW a couple times a month, but ... idk, I haven't been on tumblr since early December, I don't even know what the shape of Hobbit fandom is like! (I hear tell there is no standardized pairingsmush, though, so we can now witness that pinnacle of the pairingsmush trend, Thorbo Bagginshield. That, or my friends have been making stuff up to make me laugh.) In not-tumblr spaces, fannish feelings I have had:

+ Les Mis! Ever since teching Les Mis in high school I've had lots of feeeelings about it, and seeing the film made me really want to reread the book, which I also haven't done since high school. Seeing the film did ... not give me an excess of Valjean/Javert feelings, except inasmuch as I always have a lot of those; I haven't gone questing for fic, but The Drowning Sky, a lovely AU fic, somehow fell into my lap anyway, and I need roughly ten billion more fics of that vein.

+ Avengers, per usual. Part one of the stupid long post-Avengers fic is done, part two has ... really ill-advised makeouts and a ten-page outline, I'm beginning to be worried that [a] it will end up being 100,000 words long and [b] I won't finish it in time to not be jossed by Thor 2. (I know I won't be finished in time for Iron Man 3, but that's okay.)

+ FESTIVIDS. Unfortunately my internet has been so slow that it almost entirely refuses to stream vids, sooo my actual watching of things may have to wait until there is reveal and signed downloads. ALAS. Seriously I'm so excited about all the Earth's Mightiest Heroes vids I haven't been able to see yet.

+ WHITE COLLAR. I am currently keeping up with, um, I think the current roster of telly is something like Castle, Elementary, Scandal, Revenge, and obviously Doctor Who and Community when they return, but between all the real-life things I have going on, I've been really terrible at keeping up with them. White Collar? YES GOOD WATCHING RIGHT NOW, show of my heart! Brief cheerful spoilery reaction to this week's episode. )

That's about it. But in case you were wondering, internet, fuuuuuck it's cold in Boston right now.
aria: ([yuletide] shiny!)
( Jan. 1st, 2013 02:34 pm)
Oh hey, it's that time again! For Yuletide this year, I wrote just the one fic:

shape of the boundaries you leave behind. Demon's Lexicon, Alan/Sin. "Come on," Cynthia said, and pulled him upstairs. Alan went without protest, because Cynthia's warm hand in his was the only thing tethering him to the world. Everything else was dark and cold, killing cold.

Initially this fic was weirdly difficult to write, because though I ship Alan/Sin like burning, my Demon's Lexicon pairing of choice is ... everyone; I kept trying to dial back my earnest poly agenda, and the fic wasn't quite working. Then Olivia, who is the best beta ever and always knows what my story needs to do, told me gently that this story was allowed to have more Nick. And suddenly it worked! MORE NICK, is the moral of every Lexicon story.

I'm sad I didn't get through the whole archive before reveals; but I'm still trucking along, and enjoying myself immensely.
aria: ([thor] darcy)
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( Dec. 31st, 2012 11:16 am)
So [personal profile] thingswithwings made a post about various configurations of Avengers pairings, including a throwaway line about how Darcy Lewis/Janet Van Dyne would be pretty great, and ... somehow that happened, and ate my entire morning. So!

#TeamJanet, Darcy/Jan. Darcy feels herself starting to get disappointed, but thirty seconds later she's tempted to find a sharpie and write #TeamJanet on her forehead as a reminder to herself to never ever make snap judgments, because apparently Janet can shoot electricity from her hands, and is therefore the coolest human Darcy has ever seen.

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS. <3
aria: ([doctor who] eleventy says yay!)
( Dec. 25th, 2012 10:09 pm)
Re: Doctor Who: I AM REALLY EXCITED ABOUT CLARA! I am ... not sure I have ever been this excited about a new companion right off the bat? I mean, I loved Rose and Martha and Donna and Amy all by the end of their first episode, but CLARA OKAY.

Yesss I am pretty thrilled to have my Doctor Who excitement return to me.
aria: ([yuletide] shiny!)
( Dec. 25th, 2012 06:02 pm)
First things first: Yuletide!! I received not one but TWO Babylon 5 fics this year, about which I am very pleased, because it means that my request and my lovely writers have upped the number of Londo/G'Kar fics on the internet, which is ... one of my sillier life goals, but even so.

In Vino Veritas, a slice of life with drunk Londo and long-suffering G'Kar on Centauri Prime. It is silly and serious and sweet by turns, and very much a Yuletide fic in the sense that it made me feel all warm and fuzzy first thing on Christmas morning.

In Flagrante, three times Londo and G'Kar were caught in the act: one happy, one angry, one sad. Each time is utterly charming, but because I am me and I love how hugely and tragically in love they are, the heart-punching last section is my favorite. Oh, and also there is tentacle porn, which is what Londo/G'Kar is for, really.

Meanwhile my recipient seems thrilled with my offering, so an excellent Yuletide all round! I haven't had time to read any other fic yet, but I'm hoping I'll be able to get through at least a good chunk of the archive in the next few days.

Most of the reason I haven't gone through any Yuletide fic besides my own yet is that I went out to see Les Mis today! Shenanigans ensued and, though I set out for a noon showing, I didn't actually get to watch it until 2:15. But it was totally worth switching theaters and waiting! I cried buckets and want to see it a thousand times.

Christmas Eve service was lovely, and Christmas morning was good too -- after the delight of Yuletide there was leisurely breakfast and the opening of presents. I got practicalish things, and some ornaments, and unexpectedly the first two seasons of Downton Abbey; I was not anticipating the number of gifts and may have to slightly rethink how much book space I'll have in my suitcase for the return journey, but this is an excellent problem to have.

Hope you're all having a lovely holiday/good Tuesday generally. <3
Mm. I love Christmas so much. It's funny, because I never set out to have an excess of Christmas spirit or anything (if we, say, ignore for the moment the fact that I watch Muppet Christmas Carol every year) but it makes me so happy. I haven't listened at all to the Christmas mix I made a couple years ago, and I haven't watched any of my holiday movies or Christmas episodes, or reread Letters from Father Christmas, or even been on top of Yuletide in the same way I've been in years previous. But ... yesterday I wrapped presents for my parents and put them under the tree, and today I did a few final Yuletide revisions while feeling more and more excited about it, and tonight is the UU Christmas Eve service.

I've been so busy, and so overwhelmed by life happening, that it's sort of snuck up upon me this year. But I'm at my parents' house for the week, and I know my sweethearts and roommates and assorted friends are also off with family or otherwise doing good holiday things, and I feel so pleasantly anticipatory, and calmly settled into my skin.

Tomorrow of course I'm going to open presents both virtual and physical, and probably watch or read all the Christmas-themed things that I didn't get to before now. I'm just. Really happy to be happy right now.
The other day Amiel and I talked out my entire Frodo/Sam headcanon. I did not realize I had a Frodo/Sam headcanon! It has little to do with the films and is very much about my book feelings, and of course I'm unsurprised that I have these feelings, but I'd never actually organized them before. I've shipped Frodo/Sam since I was ten! I am always oddly dissatisfied with the fic and, while I can pinpoint what I don't like about it, I could never figure out what I wanted instead! especially since "More of the book?" didn't seem like the right answer. But Amiel helped me work it out, and now I know exactly the story I want, so ... on the plane, or in between reading Yuletide fic, or etc, I think I'm going to do a Lord of the Rings reread, or at least a Frodo and Sam bits reread, and then maybe write this story.

All of which is by way of saying, hey, I'm thinking about this world a lot because I saw the Hobbit.

Summary: I loved it! although with some reservations. Slightly longer summary: I want someone to make a just-the-book-bits supercut of this film somehow, which is the opposite of all my desires for the Lord of the Rings movies, and also I have a lot of opinions about these books and the adaptations thereof.

Spoilers are going on an adventure! Oh, and spoilers are also for the entire book of the Hobbit, not just the first third that is this film. )
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