a conspiracy of cartographers

+ There is the most amazing gelato place in town. Seriously, this gelato is so good that I dreamt of it.

+ I have been having lots of anxiety dreams. (Not about gelato.) Calm the fuck down, brain.

+ Remember that excellent animated show X-Men: Evolution? I missed it when it was actually airing, but the spark of fannishness set off by XMFC prompted me to watch it, and it is lovely. (Kurt is my forever boy, and Rogue is my forever girl, but I already knew these things.) Now that I have run out of that show, I seem to be watching Downton Abbey, which is also lovely but does have a dearth of mutants. I wonder what Maggie Smith's mutant power would be.

+ I never actually paid much attention to the HP films while they were happening, but apparently now they are over I mildly care? So tumblr has sent me down a rabbit hole of interviews with Dan Radcliffe. And this kid is delightful. The cognitive dissonance of being fannish about everything, though, means that I'm having the twin reactions of "I want to be your friend!" and "I want to track down all the RPF about you being BFFs with Gary Oldman."

+ Because my brain is back in the fandom groove re: HP but it's been years and there's so much fic and I don't know where to start, I have instead been reading the old fic I wrote which is still on my hard drive. And by old fic, I mean things I wrote when I was thirteen and hilarious. Seriously, when I was thirteen I had no idea how to write human emotions. Everyone reads like a cheerful sociopath! I was so popular with the other thirteen-year-olds, too. I just. I am so glad I kept all the old stuff; it greatly cheers me to see how much I have improved.

+ Aaaand, okay, I am writing a novel now. Like, a proper not-fic maybe-publishable sort of novel, that has actual characters and an outline and a plot, and a het romance (that will not become a triad I swear) (also there are lesbians) and I don't even know, you guys, I am mostly reminding myself to have fun instead of trying to write something publishable, because I suspect that's the quickest way to make it torture. Right now I really like it! So that's what I'm up to. Ahhhh.

Someone is holding an epic Remus/Sirius nostalgia & love party, and I don't ... care. Wow. I am tempted to write at least one R/S fic for Cliche Bingo, if only because I'm sure I have at least one leftover thing to say about Harry Potter, and it is still Baby's First OTP, but I just ... I think my disenchantment with those books (no pun intended, oh god) is complete. This does not mean I do not still love Prisoner of Azkaban. This does not mean I can't still recite embarrassingly large swathes of the entire three-plus chapters in the Shrieking Shack from memory. This does not mean I am not a little irrationally excited about the HBP film next month. But I think I am done, and the realization is kind of nice.

Meanwhile in the light of day I am not going "oh my god why did I go mad at midnight and post porn??" which I think is a win; Fraser POV, I own you. Uh, I probably am going to watch more Twitch City over breakfast, oh god why, and also this morning I woke up with the excited phrase "Sweet baby Jesus and all his angels!" running through my head, and it took me five bewildered minutes to remember that it's something the curling commentator in Men With Brooms says. I observe all these things in aid of acknowledging that, although I am feeling kind of an irrational sense of accomplishment in letting go of the fandom things I loved at fourteen, I am still a migratory fandom caterpillar who is unlikely to ever hatch into a butterfly of normal adult life. What do people in normal adult life do for hobbies? My dad gets fannish about history and my mum volunteers for everything ever. But then in the evenings they enthusiastically watch Slings & Arrows with me, so maybe normal adult life is a myth anyway.

I am going to a wedding this afternoon in my pretty new dress, so any actual interaction re: this meme might be a little slow coming, but here is the interview meme that occasionally goes around: If you want me to interview you--post a comment that simply says, "Interview me." I'll respond with questions for you to take back to your own journal and answer as a post. Of course, they'll be different for each person since this is an interview and not a general survey. At the bottom of your post, after answering the Interviewer's questions, you ask if anyone wants to be interviewed. So it becomes your turn-- in the comments, you ask them any questions you have for them to take back to their journals and answer. And so it becomes the circle.

Answers to questions from wintercreek: ( 1. How did you decide what information to include on your Master Fic List? 2. What's the best book you've read that's not part of the literary canon? 3. Are there pieces of online/fannish convention that have infiltrated your offline life? 4. What was the greatest thing about your due South rewatch? 5. Have you ever found yourself using fic to work through something from your real life, or is it purely separate? )