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Because I like to (preemptively?) announce the ridiculous things I am into: I seem to be getting genuinely, properly fannish about Narnia. This is as weird and surreal to me as it would be if I suddenly became properly fannish about Lord of the Rings, because ... IDK, these are the fandoms of my heart, and they give me FEELINGS, and it seems weird to mess about with them.

But I do know why this is happening! I adopt active fandoms for one of two reasons: [a] they are lovely and delightful, and the things that I don't like aren't worth bothering about too much, and the things that I love are worth elaborating on, so I just want to keep playing in the world; or [b] the things I love are worth elaborating on, but the things I don't like are worth FIXING, and I am damn well going to do something about it. (So due South is in the former category, and Doctor Who is often in the latter -- but not this last season, hence me not really generating fic.) The things that I love but am not actively fannish about, meanwhile, are either [c] delightful and complete enough in themselves that I will enjoy them and leave them be, or [d] a bit like the category b material, only the things that need fixing are too damn big. And Narnia has always sort of been in this last category for me.

The thing that is skewing it dangerously from [d] to [b] is the Voyage of the Dawn Treader film, because it flipped the FIX FIX FIX switch in my brain. Now I am unfortunately applying it to everything, from theology/philosophy to timelines to worldbuilding. HELP.

Brb, off to keep reading Carpetbaggers and stare at Edmund watch Prince Caspian. /o\

Re: delicious shutting down, I am mildly heartbroken because it warms my fuzzy organizational heart, and massively heartbroken because [a] it's such a lovely convenient way to find fic by specifics like pairing! and [b] I'll be honest, one of my favorite features was the ability to plug in the URL for one of my fics and see the notes people had made on it. However, all is not lost! I've seen these links around, but I figured I'd signal-boost: go here to export your own delicious bookmarks so at least you won't lose years' accumulation of favorite fics, and go here for some encouraging brainstorming on the subject of a possible fan-friendly delicious clone.

Re: other things I am doing to cheer myself up, at the moment I am eating chocolate, as you do, and watching Narnia films, ostensibly in preparation for seeing Dawn Treader sometime in the next few days. The funny thing is that I have to be sure to really make time to watch the Narnia movies, because I am so FEELINGS FEELINGS FEELINGS about them. Seriously, I cry all the way through The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. Why? I'm not even sure! I sort of waffle between whether Lewis or Tolkien is responsible for my first really fannish whatever, because I made my mum endlessly reread The Hobbit to me when I was four and I had a hilarious Elven Mary Sue when I was ten (alas, she never made it to paper, but she was BFFs with Frodo and had a romance with Faramir and Eowyn's son, it was awesome); on the other hand, I actually remember having ~theories~ about the Narnia books when they were first being read to me, and I still vividly recall the sheer joyful anticipation of a week in first grade when my family had ordered the BBC Narnia series and I could watch them ALL THE TIME, and I believed in Aslan so, so much. Basically what this means is that when I watch these new films and they are all pure and earnest and Aslan resurrects triumphantly as the dawn breaks behind him, I am damn well going to happily cry all over everything.

Do -- do any of you get all FEELINGS FEELINGS FEELINGS about Narnia? Surely this is at least somewhat a shared experience.

Re: Yuletide: AHAHAHA WHAT YULETIDE, WHAT COULD YOU POSSIBLY BE TALKING ABOUT, FUCK OFF, I AM WATCHING NARNIA FILMS.