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this just in: john sheppard is still my space boyfriend
The conclusion I'm reaching right now has very little to do with what is sane and probably quite a lot to do with the fact that my mind scrambles wildly for distractions when I'm overworked, but: the slow start of s1 and the more painful bits of the Michael arc aside, I think I want to do a genuine rewatch of Stargate Atlantis. It's not that I've been doing a fake rewatch, but I have been doing a very haphazard patchwork one; I mean, I've had barely any Lorne and not nearly enough Zelenka. I'm sure I've missed important conversations about Batman. My rewatch seems to be weirdly skewed in favor of Rodney Being Epic rather than John Being Epic, and although I approve of these ratios I would like to watch my ridiculous space boyfriend some more. And there are so many things about s2-4 that I really love!
I don't think SGA is ever going to be one of My Fandoms, affection for the fic and my ever-more-elaborate plotting for the SGA/due South crossover aside; I've had very few great and sweeping fandom loves, and since my SGA revival is coming in the middle of an apparently long-lasting and happy relationship with due South, it really doesn't have a chance. Still, I'm feeling great affection for it.
The s4 watch notes are cut for screencaps. Blame Doppelganger.
+ The beginning of the season, trying to save the failing Elizabeth and trying to save the failing city at the same time, breaks my heart a little. Not that Elizabeth literally = Atlantis (if this was so I'd probably have to ship Elizabeth/John? awkward), but things really aren't the same without her.
+ Re: my question last SGA post, Rodney does officially say "John" for the first time in Adrift, the first episode of s4. He says it off-screen, when the camera's on John and they're arguing about whether to activate the nanites in Elizabeth, but he still says it and I expect him to do it plenty more in future.
+ I think I will never have an actual solid opinion on Rodney/Keller, simply because at the moment my To Watch list for s5 is about five episodes long; what I do know is that I am perfectly willing to ship her with Ronon, and Sam, and Teyla, for god's sake. I like s4 Keller! She's a total sweetheart, and really smart, and has good chemistry with plenty of people, and her major fault seems to be that unlike the rest of these completely insane people, she's not cut out for Atlantis long-term.
+ Okay. Doppelganger. I have a question. WHY IS IT SO RIDICULOUSLY HOT TO WATCH JOHN SHEPPARD BEAT HIMSELF UP. I know I am not alone here. But seriously now, wherefore the tingly delight? My leading theory is that we get evil!John and onhisknees!John at the same time.
(Hello, this reminds me of a lieutenant colonel is being beaten. Which, uh. You will not judge me if this is another reason John Sheppard is my space boyfriend, right? Fldskjds that vid makes me want to write SO MUCH FIC about how screwed-up John is. There is lots of fic about how screwed-up John is, right?? WHERE CAN I FIND IT.)
Um yes I did screencap the fuck out of this scene.
+ Also re: Doppelganger, wow, this really is officially the John/Rodney show. I mean, really, John's worst nightmares are Rodney dying and also apparently John himself. I am not sure if "John is afraid of his own failure (& maybe his own violence) and of losing Rodney" necessarily means "John is way closeted and wants Rodney" but it's not really a huge leap, is it?
In conclusion OT-fucking-P.
+ Re: Tabula Rasa: I find Rodney writing notes on his arms unexpectedly hot. Good god. Maybe he can be my space boyfriend after all. Rodney can also maybe be my space boyfriend because, when he has no idea who he is, he's scared but he's still brave and determined to do things. Incidentally, I note that when everyone loses their memories, Sam and Rodney still think the same way, but Keller's scared and wants things to stay as they are. I'm not setting out to compile a list of Reasons Rodney And Keller Make No Sense, but it seems to be happening anyway.
+ JEANNIE'S LEFT-HANDED! This isn't really that exciting; I confess I'm just hugely in love with Jeannie. Maybe all the energy that I could put into being in love with Rodney I instead put into being in love with his sister? I have no idea.
+ Miller's Crossing: Rodney connecting with the captive Wraith that knows Replicator code. I love that scene. It's Rodney trying to make emotional connections, and more importantly it's him empathizing, because he realizes that if the Wraith has no family, and no reason to trust Rodney, at least it has the same ambition, and that's -- dsldfkdjfd.
+ And -- that's just really a fucking incredible episode all around. Rodney's willingness to feed himself to the Wraith to save Jeannie. John's sheer panic and inability to let Rodney do it. John interrogating the guy who kidnapped them into sacrificing himself. It's ... really terrifying and awful, actually, and I love him as a character so much.
+ Speaking of loving John as a character, I'm spending a lot of my patchwork s4 rewatch Earthside, it seems. So: Outcast! flfsdfdskj JFC, John's brother absolutely, absolutely thinks that Ronon is John's boyfriend. I don't even know what to do with this episode. Except, obviously, adore Ronon because he took up the emotional slack while Rodney went off to deal with the Planet of the Children.
+ Meanwhile I love the whole massive backstory inherent to Outcast: I love that, contrary to the perfectly reasonable fanon, John's family isn't military, that going off to be a flyboy instead of growing up to be a swanky lawyer was John being a bad son. I love Nancy the extremely put-together ex-wife who is absolutely wrong for John in every conceivable way, and their paralyzing inability to say anything to each other, and how John can't even hug her back. Just. This EPISODE. I think Nancy is exactly what I wish Stella Kowalski was like in a perfect world.
And now to soldier bravely on to the wilds of never-before-seen-s5! I only have three non-arc-y random episodes cued, plus the finale, so I'm sure my thoughts will be scattered and useless and quite sans context, but I shouldn't be looking for fannish contexts during exam time anyway.
I don't think SGA is ever going to be one of My Fandoms, affection for the fic and my ever-more-elaborate plotting for the SGA/due South crossover aside; I've had very few great and sweeping fandom loves, and since my SGA revival is coming in the middle of an apparently long-lasting and happy relationship with due South, it really doesn't have a chance. Still, I'm feeling great affection for it.
The s4 watch notes are cut for screencaps. Blame Doppelganger.
+ The beginning of the season, trying to save the failing Elizabeth and trying to save the failing city at the same time, breaks my heart a little. Not that Elizabeth literally = Atlantis (if this was so I'd probably have to ship Elizabeth/John? awkward), but things really aren't the same without her.
+ Re: my question last SGA post, Rodney does officially say "John" for the first time in Adrift, the first episode of s4. He says it off-screen, when the camera's on John and they're arguing about whether to activate the nanites in Elizabeth, but he still says it and I expect him to do it plenty more in future.
+ I think I will never have an actual solid opinion on Rodney/Keller, simply because at the moment my To Watch list for s5 is about five episodes long; what I do know is that I am perfectly willing to ship her with Ronon, and Sam, and Teyla, for god's sake. I like s4 Keller! She's a total sweetheart, and really smart, and has good chemistry with plenty of people, and her major fault seems to be that unlike the rest of these completely insane people, she's not cut out for Atlantis long-term.
+ Okay. Doppelganger. I have a question. WHY IS IT SO RIDICULOUSLY HOT TO WATCH JOHN SHEPPARD BEAT HIMSELF UP. I know I am not alone here. But seriously now, wherefore the tingly delight? My leading theory is that we get evil!John and onhisknees!John at the same time.
(Hello, this reminds me of a lieutenant colonel is being beaten. Which, uh. You will not judge me if this is another reason John Sheppard is my space boyfriend, right? Fldskjds that vid makes me want to write SO MUCH FIC about how screwed-up John is. There is lots of fic about how screwed-up John is, right?? WHERE CAN I FIND IT.)
Um yes I did screencap the fuck out of this scene.
+ Also re: Doppelganger, wow, this really is officially the John/Rodney show. I mean, really, John's worst nightmares are Rodney dying and also apparently John himself. I am not sure if "John is afraid of his own failure (& maybe his own violence) and of losing Rodney" necessarily means "John is way closeted and wants Rodney" but it's not really a huge leap, is it?
In conclusion OT-fucking-P.
+ Re: Tabula Rasa: I find Rodney writing notes on his arms unexpectedly hot. Good god. Maybe he can be my space boyfriend after all. Rodney can also maybe be my space boyfriend because, when he has no idea who he is, he's scared but he's still brave and determined to do things. Incidentally, I note that when everyone loses their memories, Sam and Rodney still think the same way, but Keller's scared and wants things to stay as they are. I'm not setting out to compile a list of Reasons Rodney And Keller Make No Sense, but it seems to be happening anyway.
+ JEANNIE'S LEFT-HANDED! This isn't really that exciting; I confess I'm just hugely in love with Jeannie. Maybe all the energy that I could put into being in love with Rodney I instead put into being in love with his sister? I have no idea.
+ Miller's Crossing: Rodney connecting with the captive Wraith that knows Replicator code. I love that scene. It's Rodney trying to make emotional connections, and more importantly it's him empathizing, because he realizes that if the Wraith has no family, and no reason to trust Rodney, at least it has the same ambition, and that's -- dsldfkdjfd.
+ And -- that's just really a fucking incredible episode all around. Rodney's willingness to feed himself to the Wraith to save Jeannie. John's sheer panic and inability to let Rodney do it. John interrogating the guy who kidnapped them into sacrificing himself. It's ... really terrifying and awful, actually, and I love him as a character so much.
+ Speaking of loving John as a character, I'm spending a lot of my patchwork s4 rewatch Earthside, it seems. So: Outcast! flfsdfdskj JFC, John's brother absolutely, absolutely thinks that Ronon is John's boyfriend. I don't even know what to do with this episode. Except, obviously, adore Ronon because he took up the emotional slack while Rodney went off to deal with the Planet of the Children.
+ Meanwhile I love the whole massive backstory inherent to Outcast: I love that, contrary to the perfectly reasonable fanon, John's family isn't military, that going off to be a flyboy instead of growing up to be a swanky lawyer was John being a bad son. I love Nancy the extremely put-together ex-wife who is absolutely wrong for John in every conceivable way, and their paralyzing inability to say anything to each other, and how John can't even hug her back. Just. This EPISODE. I think Nancy is exactly what I wish Stella Kowalski was like in a perfect world.
And now to soldier bravely on to the wilds of never-before-seen-s5! I only have three non-arc-y random episodes cued, plus the finale, so I'm sure my thoughts will be scattered and useless and quite sans context, but I shouldn't be looking for fannish contexts during exam time anyway.
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Now I am reading Sheppard's Law instead of doing my homework. HELP.
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John is SO in love with Rodney, and Rodney is TOTALLY in love with John, he just doesn't realize it. AAAAH, BOYS. <3<3<3
Ooooh, that's a good story. ...and now I'm re-reading it. STOP DRAGGING ME BACK INTO THE FANDOM.
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I think "John is totally gay and PS really in love with Rodney" is canon in my head. I think "Rodney could be functionally bisexual without hangups but is also REALLY DUMB" is also canon in my head. Thank god for fandom.
MWAHAHA. :D
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My theory is this: "John has feelings for Rodney, which is why he makes sad faces when Rodney's about to die or is getting along well with a girl. But he can't really say anything thanks to DADT. Rodney has feelings back (he totally wanted John to stop him from proposing to Katie), but they confuse him, and he doesn't think John would want to be with someone like him. That, and he's completely oblivious to the fact that John wants him.
Enter Jennifer, who likes Rodney. Rodney's like "hey! a girl likes me! and she has blond streaks. and is smart. and doesn't have allergenic plants." Since he doesn't think he has a chance with John, he goes after Jennifer, totally oblivious to John, who is Not Happy.
But even though John is Not Happy, he wants Rodney to be Happy, cause Rodney deserves it. So if Jennifer makes Rodney Happy, then John will stand quietly to the side and just be the Best Friend who Rodney can be a nerd with, since Jennifer sure the heck doesn't know the names of the actors and actresses from the Batman series."
Of course, that's why I love AUs, because then John and Rodney ALWAYS end up together. Mwah. XD