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and in the end it's love
So I watched HCL again and I may be slightly floored by how much I love it so quickly. This is what happened to all of you who got dragged into new Trek fandom, isn't it? But, um, I am just not used to movies doing this to me. I mean, I loved Life On Mars right away, but because I'd already gotten acclimated to Doctor Who over a year or two; I loved due South right away, but I'd already seen Slings & Arrows and mildly enjoyed it (mildly, yeah, I don't know). I guess this is due to the magic of already loving CKR? The fact that it's some sort of nesting doll fandom-within-a-fandom? I have no idea!
Mostly I think I am bewildered because it does not at first glance seem like the kind of thing I would enjoy. (Of course, neither was Fight Club, which is neither here nor there but at least both of them fall under the "Emotionally screwed-up guys hitting each other, woo!" category?) I mean, at first thought it kind of goes, Things I normally like: Callum Keith Rennie! and Things I normally don't like: ...everything else? but then I actually thought about it for a little while, and it actually goes something like this:
Things I normally like: Callum Keith Rennie; actors who are so obviously friends that no, really, I'd happily just watch a whole hour and a half of them playing their stupid time-travel game and calling each other names; things you need to watch at least five times in order to catch more than fifty percent of the nuances; stories that are told not quite in linear narratives; stories with unreliable narrators (seriously, we have the documentary conceit but no way was John actually reading his diary and I am beginning to have suspicions of Joe-POV shots, plus I have a hilarious dislike of 'Bruce' and do not really trust him to have edited for appropriate foreshadowing); people who are in love and do stupid stuff and fail at any emotional articulation ever sfdldsfdjf; and the way I feel like I'm being spoiled a lot lately and given subtext that at second glance is just basically text.
Things I normally don't like: the way I am beginning to suspect that if I watch that film often enough I will just get lung cancer by osmosis, seriously; sacrificing goats :( NO REALLY WHY; and SPOILER that goddamn movie ending where someone unexpectedly dies because I've been crushed when this happens in otherwise good movies plenty of times, but ... in this particular case my sense of narrative is perfectly happy, possibly in part because I already knew and had fun with the foreshadowing.
So I guess it makes sense! I am still a little bewildered, though, and also slightly despairing because when I get that much fandom love I want to do something fannish and I cannot conceive of a world where I would be able to write fic I'd be satisfied with. (And no, really, somewhere in a corner the Master is crying to himself because his Doctor obsession has got nothing on Joe's for Billy. Oh yeah, and Joe's fast one kind of works for a little while and he doesn't look too stupid doing it. ...I have a couple of OTP types, but one of them is so hilariously unhealthy!) Anyway, um. *flaily hands*
This probably wasn't coherent at all. Maybe I'll try to go write more Kowalski; he cooperates.
Mostly I think I am bewildered because it does not at first glance seem like the kind of thing I would enjoy. (Of course, neither was Fight Club, which is neither here nor there but at least both of them fall under the "Emotionally screwed-up guys hitting each other, woo!" category?) I mean, at first thought it kind of goes, Things I normally like: Callum Keith Rennie! and Things I normally don't like: ...everything else? but then I actually thought about it for a little while, and it actually goes something like this:
Things I normally like: Callum Keith Rennie; actors who are so obviously friends that no, really, I'd happily just watch a whole hour and a half of them playing their stupid time-travel game and calling each other names; things you need to watch at least five times in order to catch more than fifty percent of the nuances; stories that are told not quite in linear narratives; stories with unreliable narrators (seriously, we have the documentary conceit but no way was John actually reading his diary and I am beginning to have suspicions of Joe-POV shots, plus I have a hilarious dislike of 'Bruce' and do not really trust him to have edited for appropriate foreshadowing); people who are in love and do stupid stuff and fail at any emotional articulation ever sfdldsfdjf; and the way I feel like I'm being spoiled a lot lately and given subtext that at second glance is just basically text.
Things I normally don't like: the way I am beginning to suspect that if I watch that film often enough I will just get lung cancer by osmosis, seriously; sacrificing goats :( NO REALLY WHY; and SPOILER that goddamn movie ending where someone unexpectedly dies because I've been crushed when this happens in otherwise good movies plenty of times, but ... in this particular case my sense of narrative is perfectly happy, possibly in part because I already knew and had fun with the foreshadowing.
So I guess it makes sense! I am still a little bewildered, though, and also slightly despairing because when I get that much fandom love I want to do something fannish and I cannot conceive of a world where I would be able to write fic I'd be satisfied with. (And no, really, somewhere in a corner the Master is crying to himself because his Doctor obsession has got nothing on Joe's for Billy. Oh yeah, and Joe's fast one kind of works for a little while and he doesn't look too stupid doing it. ...I have a couple of OTP types, but one of them is so hilariously unhealthy!) Anyway, um. *flaily hands*
This probably wasn't coherent at all. Maybe I'll try to go write more Kowalski; he cooperates.
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