aria: ([avengers] thor)
( Dec. 27th, 2014 04:11 pm)
My birthday this year has been very weird! I intended to have a leisurely morning, go for hot chocolate and the Into the Woods film, and grab birthday drinks with Verity after. Instead I woke up, was promptly ill, grabbed a heating pad, and went back to bed until 2. I'm feeling loads better now, though, and I will still see Verity today, albeit when she swings by my apartment to give me a hug, because I am not going for drinks today. And then I'll probably go see evening Into the Woods after all! So today is fine, just ... weird.

It did make me realize, though, that on this the anniversary of my birth I have ... become an adult who can take care of herself? I absolutely wished someone else was home to bring me water and pet my head soothingly, but I have kept myself hydrated and fed and rested! I know this is a little silly; it's not the first time I've done this. But it's about a larger pattern. When I was visiting my parents last week, telling them about my job, and my sweeties, and how the roomies and I are going to start looking for a new apartment soon, and the various creative projects I'm working on, I realized that the flavor of seeking advice and approval wasn't there any longer. I am (family cell plan excepted) a financially independent human! I don't really need my parents' help! (Okay, except with taxes.) I ... really need to make a doctor's appointment! But I do feel like I've leveled up, in a way I haven't since college, and thank goodness, it was about time to stop feeling like I was muddling about and start to feel like I'm properly managing. Adulthood!

I will now use my adulthood to go to the movies and probably cry all over everything, the way I always do at musicals. Yes good.
aria: (Default)
( Dec. 25th, 2014 11:37 am)
Haha perhaps I will do more of the December posting meme in January...

Happy Christmas/Yuletide/Thursday! I am having a quiet day at home with Verity; so far we have exchanged gifts (frying pan for her, art of my D&D character for me!!!) and watched some vids and snuggled. Holiday gifting has been spread out a lot for me this year: a white elephant swap at J's house a few weeks ago, roomie gift exchange when both of them get back at the end of this week. I think I like having a slow lingering December like this.

Started this post while Verity was in the shower, but now she's back, sitting on a couch and blowing bubbles in order to taunt the cat, so, yep, that's how I'm spending Christmas. Up soon: my birthday, possibly posts about the third Hobbit and the Korra finale. I hope everyone's having a good day <333
aria: ([avengers] natasha)
( Apr. 15th, 2014 04:46 pm)
Happy Passover! Gondor is hosting a sedar tonight for our D&D group, though as far as I know we won't be holding it in character.

Meanwhile it's spring. The weather this week, as I understand it, is going to get miserably cold again, but at the moment we have the sort of blustering spring rain that makes me crave summer thunderstorms. I was walking home with my jeans and shoes soaking wet and I didn't even care, because summer is coming! At the cafe we're running through all our cold brew before noon and the poor ice machine can't keep up with demand, but all the customers are so happy, which is incredibly pleasant.

Mostly what I've been doing this week is having awful wrecking Winter Soldier feelings. I am not going to deny these feelings! (After Thor came out I spent this precious week going "Huh, what an interesting flash-in-the-pan investment I'm having! I'm sure it'll end soon," and this is the SAME LEVEL OF INTENSITY, by which I mean, lots.) I've read a post-film fic where a line of Natasha's made me tear up, and I've been making vids in my head and tearing up more because I just love Sam Wilson so much, and I really definitely cannot hold all these feels, so instead I'm reading Black Widow comics and feeling cranky about Hydra and trying to think of an action plot to hang my OT4 story on. (I'm also not going to make it 100k. I just. Nope. I'm hoping wistfully that it'll be under 50k instead, hahaha you fool it's never under 50k when you have this many feelings.)

I'm also. Hm. I'm having some complicated Bucky feelings? )

And I'm genuinely excited for new SHIELD /o\ I still think they haven't decided where they want to come down on the morality scale, but at least CAtWS made the question actually interesting, and I'm pretty psyched for the version of the show where these losers are running around like headless chickens trying to figure out who the hell their allies are. WE SHALL SEE.
Today I am twenty-six! I think I'll give myself a mocha from the cafe and watch Frozen this afternoon.

A few years ago my birthday was my decade-in-fandom milestone; this year I have spent half my life in fandom. Here's to keeping on :)
aria: ([misc] lessthanthree)
( Dec. 25th, 2013 10:30 am)
This year I'm not at my parents' house for Christmas, I didn't attend the UU holiday service, and there is no Yuletide fic waiting for me. Instead I was back from my parents' place in time for a sprawling hours-long gift exchange with my friends earlier this week (from which I emerged with a beautiful paper lantern and nice knitwear; Polaris also got a jar full of chocolate, and since both she and Housemate A are now halfway across the country with their own families, the chocolate is mine, all mine). We did a small apartment Christmas before they both left a few days ago. I spent a lot of yesterday at work, caffeinating people through their last desperate burst of holiday shopping, and various of us got small gifts from regulars; then I went home, and watched the Community Christmas episodes, and because I was far away from the UU holiday service, I asked YouTube to play me a choir singing Silent Night.

Today I'm going over to [personal profile] scribe's for Chinese takeout and a Lord of the Rings marathon, as one does. And I've had texts and calls from various friends and family, so even though it's just me, and I'm somewhere new and doing different things, it still does feel properly like the holiday.

Hope you all have a lovely Wednesday. <333
aria: ([misc] cocoa)
( Dec. 21st, 2013 10:49 am)
i. Christmas tree! )

ii. Visiting my parents was, as usual, a weird mix between my increasing frustration with their tolerant amusement re: issues I feel strongly about (though they will at least actually listen and ask questions about queer stuff), and the ability they both have to make me cry laughing because they're ridiculous people. I also mailed myself a bunch of stuff that was still in their house (very important stuff! like Beanie Babies!) and brought up some of the remainder of my clothes and books. It felt like getting a lot of new stuff for the holidays, even though it was mostly old stuff, because brains are cool like that.

iii. I continue to be the sort of person who goes out for drinks with coworkers and dresses up to go to work holiday parties and things? The work holiday party was pretty delightful, actually! Nothing of note happened or anything, but I did stand around in a room full of people and talked to them for three hours without wishing I was somewhere else, and I enjoyed myself, so SUCCESS.

iv. I saw the Hobbit earlier this week! It held together a lot better than the first installment, I was only cranky with one bit they left out, and I continue planning the edits I want to do in order to make a Just The Book (+ maybe some other parts I like??) cut when all three films are out. I kind of wish I had more feelings, but instead I just keep having lots of Avengers feelings, and resurgent due South feelings as Housemate A and I make our way through season two, and that's a pretty comfortable place to be, fannishly.

v. I just really like this time of year. We had so much snow, and then most of it melted, and though I'd love to have snow for Christmas, this is really nice too. I'm spending good time with people, and there are so many lights everywhere in the city, and ... I'm happy right now. It feels important to catalogue when I'm doing okay, so yes: I've spent the morning wrapping presents, and I made bacon and eggs-in-a-basket for myself and Housemate A like a goddamn adult who can cook meals, and I'm about to start my second cup of tea, and I'm happy.
I caught myself thinking "I have so many things to tweet about, but I don't really want to limit myself to soundbites," and then remembered that I have a Dreamwidth, c'mon, self. So here are some things I was going to tweet about, in more than 140 characters:

i. I have completed 90% of my holiday shopping for my parents! As usual I have fifty gift ideas for my mum and very few for my dad, so I'll try to just locate some nice chocolate for my dad and not go on some sort of tea and mugs and earrings rampage for my mum. I also have wrapping paper! And I should find some nice things for my housemates, and Jessie & co's white elephant gift exchange, and ... maybe for some other people? Idk, my general policy is to get physical gifts for in-person friends and bang out a few giftfics for fandom friends generally, but I actually have a lot of friends in the area this year, and lots of nice wrapping paper. Only my parents' stuff was urgent, though, as I'm going to see them next week. This weekend, though, the tree! (I really love December, and festival-of-lights gift-giving style Christmas. I would like some snow, though, c'mon, let's get winter up in here.)

ii. I have a new laptop! The old kind of broken one (m key hasn't worked for aaages, lid will no longer close because it was winching off slowly) is called Methos, which was apparently a terrible idea, because it kept dying but never stayed dead. I think I'm calling the new one Frigga, and it will hopefully be a much better-behaved immortal until its time comes. I haven't set it up yet, though, because that really feels like a day-long task to transfer all my files and get my music in order and make sure it has the right browsers and useful programs like VLC &c. It is also going to have much better processing power than my current one, which means it is time for me to LEARN HOW TO VID. Seriously, I want to try this! So, vidding friends: anyone know what vidding program would be good? Keep in mind that I'm still on a Windows OS, so all the nice Mac-only programs are right out.

iii. Speaking of vids! The Aims vid project, in which vidders are making a vid to each song on said Vienna Teng album. The latest is The Breaking Light, a Pacific Rim vid by [personal profile] such_heights, which I knew was going to slay me going in, because anytime she vids a Vienna Teng song I basically become a sobbing mess. That it's also Pacific Rim just made everything 1000% betterworse.

iv. And speaking of Vienna Teng, I had this theory that the song Never Look Away is just one of those great songs that is applicable to basically any pairing one is currently having feels about. I was fairly sure of this when I was having lots of Thor/Loki feels about it, and now I am entirely sure of it, because I've started showing Housemate A due South and suddenly Never Look Away was this ridiculous amazing torrent of all my old Fraser/Kowalski feelings. So yeah! I am showing Housemate A due South! We're still only in first season, and I'm enjoying it immensely; it's been at least two, possibly three, years since I watched it last, and oh gosh I just love it so much, what a perfect show to watch in the drawing-in of winter.

v. I hear there is a meme going around where you suggest topics and then I post a response to one a day! I ... really don't have the wherewithal to be that diligent, but if you like, please do comment with a topic, anything you like, and I'll choose some to talk about!
aria: ([white collar] burke family)
( Nov. 29th, 2013 10:03 am)
Yesterday was lovely! We had Hanukkah food for lunch, and Thanksgiving food for dinner, and a silly lazy day in between, inventing new rules for dreidel (eat one of your coins every time you get nun! and that, kids, is how we ate two entire bags of gelt right after lunch), and making a found family vid show.

I thought it might be nice to reproduce the vid show here, so I've written up the playlist. I am not entirely happy with it as a found family show -- I tried to make it mostly gen, but there are some shippy vids; I've overrepresented a couple vidders and don't have any vids by several more whose vids I love; I wish it included things like Buffy and Sleepy Hollow and Star Trek, all of which I have lots of found family feelings for but couldn't find appropriate vids. So this is not prescriptive at all, and I would love additional recs.

16 found family vids under the cut! )
+ THE FIC DRAFT IS DONE. It clocks in at 105k (...roughly 12k of which are porn), and it's off with Olivia right now, being beta'd. I feel really bizarre about this fic! I mean, I woke up today feeling really light and happy and excited because it's done, or done enough that I can actually think about anything else ever again, but -- among other things I've made myself emotionally compromised about Thor for life, so Thor 2 next week is going to be a difficulty. Amiel and I are going to the midnight premiere with a flask of mead, of course; and the funny thing is that, because we've only just made our fic deadline, if we post one a day starting Thursday it'll also be our fic-is-done-being-posted celebration. I really like the symmetry of that, and I also really like that it means this stupid fic is going to be like a bizarre week-long advent calendar countdown to Thor 2.

+ I have had so much wear out of my Thor dress lately! Obviously I wore it to NYCC, but I also wore it to a Halloween party Friday night and then to a come-dressed-in-your-costumes birthday party bowling session on Sunday. (Among the people bowling we had Kirk, Spock, Thor, Loki, and Martian Manhunter. Kirk and Spock took turns and were Team Enterprise; Thor and Loki were not a team. I did spectacularly well in the first game and spectacularly badly in the second, but in my defense there had been pizza and beer by then.) I am also working on Halloween, so ... gonna be barista!Thor. Looking forward to this kind of a lot.

- I got so excited about finishing the draft and having any free time again that I decided to get some finances in order and register for direct pay things! Then nothing would work in Chrome so I had to use Firefox, and one site worked after that but another refused to let me copy-paste anything into the email field, which ... is unfortunate, since I'm still doing ctrl+v every time I want to type the letter m. I'm putting this particular adulting shit on the backburner until I get a new laptop, but the latest in the ongoing laptop saga is that I got an email yesterday saying, sorry, your delivery has been delayed, we apologize for the inconvenience. At least this time they're not ... rescinding the product entirely? But this is fucking ridiculous.

+ On the other hand I finished the draft and I have any free time again! I also have very little work this week, which means I'm going to clear out the slush and catch up on tumblr and play lots of Dragon Age II and, assuming poor Housemate A actually gets home before midnight, make her play tons of Lego Marvel with me (seriously it is the BEST GAME EVER, like, Reed Richards literally turns into a giant tool, and HULK SMASH EVERYTHING, and the cut scenes with Doom and Loki are amazing). And I have plenty of time to do edits before posting, too! This week should be really pleasant.

+ FIC FIC FIC
Woke up to a tweet from Polaris that said Look, I found the perfect Valentine for you and linked me to a tumblr post with the following text:

blood is red
love is redder
ur morally accepted ship is good
but incest is better

Guys, my BFF is a lovely human who mocks my ridiculousnesses in the best possible way. Happy February 14th, I guess! The housemates and I are breaking out chocolate cake this evening and hopefully just hanging out for a bit, and that is in fact exactly the way I want to spend Valentine's Day, because unsurprisingly, proscriptive heterosexual narratives are not my jam, and I love my friends, and also I love cake! (I did buy a nice card that is not explicitly couple-y, and I'm going to give it to my sweeties tomorrow, but, y'know, in the spirit of Lupercalia, as you do.)

Also, hell, this meme is going around, and it looks like fun: Let's play this game where you guess my favourite tropes and fictional character types.

I ... doubt much guessing will be involved. But you get no points for incest, Polaris already lampshaded that one.
aria: ([yuletide] shiny!)
( Dec. 25th, 2012 06:02 pm)
First things first: Yuletide!! I received not one but TWO Babylon 5 fics this year, about which I am very pleased, because it means that my request and my lovely writers have upped the number of Londo/G'Kar fics on the internet, which is ... one of my sillier life goals, but even so.

In Vino Veritas, a slice of life with drunk Londo and long-suffering G'Kar on Centauri Prime. It is silly and serious and sweet by turns, and very much a Yuletide fic in the sense that it made me feel all warm and fuzzy first thing on Christmas morning.

In Flagrante, three times Londo and G'Kar were caught in the act: one happy, one angry, one sad. Each time is utterly charming, but because I am me and I love how hugely and tragically in love they are, the heart-punching last section is my favorite. Oh, and also there is tentacle porn, which is what Londo/G'Kar is for, really.

Meanwhile my recipient seems thrilled with my offering, so an excellent Yuletide all round! I haven't had time to read any other fic yet, but I'm hoping I'll be able to get through at least a good chunk of the archive in the next few days.

Most of the reason I haven't gone through any Yuletide fic besides my own yet is that I went out to see Les Mis today! Shenanigans ensued and, though I set out for a noon showing, I didn't actually get to watch it until 2:15. But it was totally worth switching theaters and waiting! I cried buckets and want to see it a thousand times.

Christmas Eve service was lovely, and Christmas morning was good too -- after the delight of Yuletide there was leisurely breakfast and the opening of presents. I got practicalish things, and some ornaments, and unexpectedly the first two seasons of Downton Abbey; I was not anticipating the number of gifts and may have to slightly rethink how much book space I'll have in my suitcase for the return journey, but this is an excellent problem to have.

Hope you're all having a lovely holiday/good Tuesday generally. <3
Mm. I love Christmas so much. It's funny, because I never set out to have an excess of Christmas spirit or anything (if we, say, ignore for the moment the fact that I watch Muppet Christmas Carol every year) but it makes me so happy. I haven't listened at all to the Christmas mix I made a couple years ago, and I haven't watched any of my holiday movies or Christmas episodes, or reread Letters from Father Christmas, or even been on top of Yuletide in the same way I've been in years previous. But ... yesterday I wrapped presents for my parents and put them under the tree, and today I did a few final Yuletide revisions while feeling more and more excited about it, and tonight is the UU Christmas Eve service.

I've been so busy, and so overwhelmed by life happening, that it's sort of snuck up upon me this year. But I'm at my parents' house for the week, and I know my sweethearts and roommates and assorted friends are also off with family or otherwise doing good holiday things, and I feel so pleasantly anticipatory, and calmly settled into my skin.

Tomorrow of course I'm going to open presents both virtual and physical, and probably watch or read all the Christmas-themed things that I didn't get to before now. I'm just. Really happy to be happy right now.
aria: ([yuletide] shiny!)
( Dec. 15th, 2012 03:17 pm)
I have posted the first 1000+ words of my Yuletide fic! It is nothing like done, but at the moment my BEARS feel more like ... bear cubs? Something like that. Manageable, anyway.

I have also decorated the tree, and helped various friends cook things for the holiday party this evening. I love this time of year a lot. :D
sdkdsfk my Fourth of July was amaaazing. Polaris and I made delicious burgers and watched 1776 over cake, singing along with all the songs and mouthing along with the dialogue; in the evening I met up with Emma and Amiel, and we went to see fireworks along the river. It was hands-down the best fireworks show I've ever seen, not only because the finale was quite literally breathtaking, but also because just after the fireworks started there was an absolute deluge of rain, so my glasses smeared the fireworks too bright to see and I laughed until I cried a little.

I'm also going on travel adventures to see [personal profile] thingswithwings and [personal profile] eruthros tomorrow, which I am absurdly excited about, so today's my day of quiet sandwiched in between lovely things.
Happy Galentine's Day
my thread


(Despite that this claims to be LADIES CELEBRATING LADIES, the post also says And if you identify outside the gender binary and want to join in: Galentine's Day is for you, too! Anyone who would like to participate, in any capacity, is welcome so THAT MEANS ALL OF YOU.) In between Getting Things Done today I plan to cruise threads and leave love.
aria: ([misc] infinity ahead)
( Jan. 1st, 2012 12:28 pm)
Yuletide reveal time! I've just the one story: Taking In, Young Wizards. I am the water, and the waves, or Ronan Nolan's Ordeal. Just a short character sketch, but I am fond of it. Also I am a bit proud of myself for actually writing something reasonably short for once.

And happy new year! On this the advent of 2012, I have made a number of small resolutions, mostly along the lines of finishing various writing projects and making an effort to take better care of myself. That's just the usual nonsense, though; the important thing is that I am looking forward to this year so much. I am switching cities and moving in with my BFF, I am determined to expand my social circle in said city, I have two cons to go to (and I'll probably engage in the yearly debate with myself over whether to try for VividCon, and probably decide yet again to go next year) and a delightfully large number of my US friends to see. I fully expect this coming year to be challenging and sometimes exhausting and a bit scary, and also delightful and full of adventure and deeply rewarding. Bring it on, 2012, I'm armed with all the determined enthusiasm I have. Let's do this thing.
aria: ([aria] the writer)
( Dec. 31st, 2011 10:36 am)
I ... am not going to do the fic year in review meme this year, because it asks such questions as what your favorite fic was, what your best fic was, what your sexiest fic was, &c &c, and it is not actually interesting if I just sit here typing SHATTER SHATTER SHATTER. Instead, have a quick fic roundup to end the year.

12 fics in 10 fandoms, some navel-gazing, & a list of WIPs to finish in the new year. It's like the meme in short form! )
aria: ([yuletide] shiny!)
( Dec. 25th, 2011 11:35 am)
As usual, Christmas morning is a glorious explosion of joy thanks to the magic of Yuletide. Not only did I get my main Yuletide gift, but I have a treat yet to be revealed. Those go live ... tomorrow? Greatly looking forward to it, anyway.

Have done with sorrow [Demon's Lexicon]
This is Nick/Alan, post-series, and EVERYTHING THAT I WANT. (Seriously, I would have been happy with any of the fandoms that I asked, but I wanted DL fic most, and of all possible pairings, Nick/Alan most too. Finding exactly what one wants under the virtual tree is so great.) Nick's narrative voice is perfect, angry and half-articulate and viciously funny; it's lovely to see the Market a few years in the future, and the ways in which everyone hasn't stopped being damaged. My author is either someone on my rlist or someone who researched me but good after being assigned me, because this hits all my narrative kinks. I just want to read it a million times and bask.

My gifts under the proper tree were quite excellent too: I got a slew of Sandman, and two lovely thick Sherlock Holmes anthologies, and a truly alarming amount of chocolate. Also [personal profile] polarisnorth sent me these little guys (Sam, Dean, Cas, and Impala art charms); I plan to hang the boys on the tree and use the Impala as a keychain. So adorbs.

I would plan to use the rest of today to start sinking into the Yuletide archive, but actually I will be baking pies and watching Muppet Christmas Carol and Love Actually and the Doctor Who Christmas special. Perhaps I can sneak a bit of Yuletide between times.
Today was the annual Christmas pageant at the local Unitarian Universalist church. Apparently every year the choir director gets together with the kids and they cook up something unique for each production, but this is the first time I've been in town when they put it on.

It was so adorable. Their baby Jesus was a real live baby, five weeks old, whose parents are church members. Baby Jesus behaved herself admirably; I think she slept through most of her two scenes. And those scenes were filled with earnest young angels and sheep and shepherds and kings and &c. I kind of kept tearing up from how adorable it was, because I'm ridiculous like that.

The basic plot was that everyone's assembled in the stable to sing a song about Jesus being born when the Archangel Michael realizes that there's an alarming lack of shepherds, so he goes off to find the nearest shepherds (who, for reasons unknown, live in "the outskirts of Ramah, 15 miles from Bethlehem," or so the program insert tells me). Meanwhile Lucifer and his minion Asmodeo learn of the birth of Jesus (on a computer, idk, perhaps they were checking facebook) and decide to stop the shepherds from reaching Bethlehem. Most of the play was taken up with their various failed schemes to stop the shepherds.

I can't actually textually convey how great it was? Lucifer kept on kind of forgetting his lines, Asmodeo was a total ham, nine-year-old Michael was very serious business and six-year-old Gabriel followed him around the whole time, also looking very serious, until near the end they all had a showdown with SWORDS. And then everyone gathered in the stable and sang a song!

...Also, the woman who led the opening prayer prior to the pageant mentioned offhandedly that she was from Lawrence, Kansas, but that is entirely irrelevant and has no bearing on the reasons that I was shaking with delighted laughter through the whole service.
aria: ([aria] dancing)
( Dec. 11th, 2011 09:31 pm)
+ The majority of my physical Christmas shopping is done! Soon I will WRAP them and set them under the TREE and -- I really love the evergreens and shining lights and finding gifts and drinking delicious spiked cocoa on Christmas morning with my mother; I am ridiculously overfull of holiday spirit.

+ ...most of my giftfics are still in their embryonic stages, but my absurd Marauders polyfic (15,000 words and counting, I am starting to think I am actually psychologically incapable of short things) has finally come to the point at which everyone is sitting down and talking logistics and there might even be sex somewhere in the next five to ten pages! (I am starting to think that this story has to end in some kind of AU, because Lily teaches Remus how to not get a girl pregnant with the exciting application of Muggle prophylactics, and everyone learns good lessons about proper communication and not switching Secret Keepers at the last moment or anything like that.) In any case, perhaps it will soon be done and no longer bewilderingly consuming my life.

+ My friend Chris just gave me a call (which I missed due to aforementioned Christmas shopping) to wish me a cryogenically frozen happy birthday, to be thawed at the end of the month on the advent of me getting older. I laughed like a hyena, and then saved the message, to listen to again on the 27th.

+ There is a plot brewing amongst various of my Dragon*Con buddies to have a drunken communal watching of Stonehenge Apocalypse. Now that I kind of care about Misha's face, and also now that I have some fangirls with which to watch it, my brain is going "is it D*C yet is it D*C yet let's watch it NOW!" It'll keep, brain. It will still be horrible next September.

+ I'm also just delighted that I am delighted. Fuck this Northern Hemisphere early darkness, I'm going to light this place right up.
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