i. I can't stop listening to Aims, Vienna Teng's new album. (Link goes to the soundcloud album stream she posted. Actual album comes out tomorrow!) Just want to listen to all of it on endless loop, particularly Level Up and Never Look Away. It is good fighting music, and being happy music. It's perfect as a ward against and an accompaniment to the onset of autumn; my brain doesn't know what to make of the cold, because in the general way of things fall and winter make me very happy, but last winter was the absolute worst and of course has attached sense memories, so ... we'll see how that goes. And listen to Vienna Teng on loop.

ii. Last week I went with a bunch of friends to see Dessa! IT WAS SO GREAT, of course it was; she played nearly everything I wanted her to, and I kept running into her in the bathroom because there was no proper backstage, so there was a lot of casual smiling acknowledgement while we washed our hands and I screamed internally. Also, quite by accident, friends I went with to the concert were my D&D group minus [personal profile] scribe, who was ... still out of the country, I think? Unsurprisingly these humans are excellent to hang out with whether or not we're slaying monsters and flirting with other monsters at the time.

iii. I just ... keep playing Dragon Age. Housemate A got Dragon Age 2 and everything! But my elf is nearly to the final battle and my dwarf is being the most hilariously best bros with Sten and I can't move on yet. (Also I got Wynne to ship my elf/Zevran; I'm not sure why I didn't get an achievement badge for that.) Polaris and I are considering whether when we run out of Dragon Age games we should try Mass Effect. I ... have the vague fannish osmosis feeling that it's good? I know some of you have played it! Please deliver unto me your Mass Effect feels, whatever they are; I would love opinions.

iv. Fic update: part five of eight complete! ONLY THREE LEFT. I'm starting to have this feeling like I'm hurtling shrieking towards the finish line, though mostly in a good way; I'm not sacrificing quality to time, it's only that I finally have my full complement of writing enthusiasm back. Getting it done is going to be a bit scary, though, because I want to have it all posted at the very last the day before Thor 2 comes out, which means I have to start posting it by very latest on Halloween, and I have to be done in time that Olivia can reasonably beta it, and ahhh. Current wordcount: 63,826. \o/
i. I went to my cousin's wedding last week! It was ... well, I'm glad I went in the sense that I don't get to see my extended family that often, and there's always the possibility that whatever time it is might be the last time I see my grandma, so it was good to see them all! But, as I explained coherently once and much less coherently other times when trying to relay the feeling of that particular family gathering, I feel as though most of them definitely have inner lives, but they are inner lives I have no way of accessing or relating to, which means we do polite small talk and then have nowhere to connect and go forward from. I suppose this is fine! But it meant a lonely weekend; and when I heard that my friends and housemates were having good hangouts and adventures (and apparently breaking everything in the Shire in Lego Lord of the Rings) I felt so homesick, and then really happy? Because there is a place that is home! And I want to be here! And there are all these lovely people with whom I am really happy to be found family! So that's lovely.

(Of course there was also the wedding itself, which gave me the reminder -- that I hope I won't need too many more times -- that I might want to stay away from earnest straight het religious weddings? Like, the nice Presbyterian priest opened his mouth and one of the first things out was something like "We are gathered here for the purpose for which God created man and woman" and I wanted to NOPE NOPE NOPE off into the sunset like that one octopus gif. So, y'know. Whatever works for your ceremony! But I need to stop going to ones that make me feel like someone is firmly and politely slamming a door in my face.)

ii. No but I'm just really happy to be here? I had an entirely typical workday today, in that I got up, had breakfast, cheerfully made people coffee for most of the morning while chatting with the regulars, didn't have much time to talk with my coworkers even though many of them are awesome to hang out with (whee Sundays are BUSY), made my way through a bit more Temeraire over lunch, nabbed discount cider on the way home, hung out with A drinking said cider and nattering for hours before playing Dragon Age, and watched Elementary with both housemates. Like. I am happy? And my stresses feel like normal dealable-with non-world-ending stresses?? IT IS PRETTY GREAT.

iii. DRAGON AGE, GUYS. In which I go on about a specific version of a stupid video game, so cut for length and self-indulgence and also spoilers. Anyway I played Loki the Bad Decision Blood Mage all the way to the end. )

iv. The Avengers fic: now officially longer than any one fic I have ever written except the Harry Potter Fic That Shall Not Be Named that I wrote from the ages of thirteen to fifteen (which clocked in at 130k). But yeah! It hit 50k! It's longer than the Doctor Who season projects! It's halfway done! Aahahal;sdkfd. Trucking along on part five, still going to do my best to have a complete full draft by the end of the month, oh godddd. \o/
A list of things that are currently making me really happy:

+ Housemate A continues phenomenal. She is a degree of tidy that makes me really happy -- we had a cleaning session with blasting music the other day -- and she brought home the most adorable geeky posters from Otakon. She also, of all horrors, bought an Xbox this weekend, as well as Dragon Age: Origins, so ... that's what we've been doing. A is doing a round as a city elf rogue, Polaris as a casteless dwarf rogue, and I have discovered that I have a really bad attention span for video games, so I am [a] a human mage (named Loki because fuck you of course I'm playing as Loki, GONNA BE A BLOOD MAGE JUST TRY TO STOP ME) and [b] a forest elf rogue and nothing else yet but I really also want to play a dwarf warrior maybe? Comparative gameplay!! Curious about how soon I will burn out and wander off, but so far it is a delight.

+ I finished The King of Attolia! I don't know if I feel fannish about the Queen's Thief books? although obviously I'd be happy to be talked into feeling fannish about them. I do know that somewhere in the third book Gen tipped over from "someone I enjoy reading about" to "someone I will clutch metaphorically to me screeching about how great they are" because I just ... am so easy for people who are heartclutchingly good at what they do while not liking themselves nor what they need to do very much, so sdkldsfjdfs. I suppose I should read A Conspiracy of Kings next, but, well, we've been mainlining Hornblower and I keep on having all these Thor/Loki feelings and then wishing astolat had written more fic, so OBVIOUSLY the solution is to reread His Majesty's Dragon. (I tapped out of those books at the beginning of Empire of Ivory last time for reasons of having a Thing about plagues, and specifically not wanting to read about them, but I think I'm going to give it another go.)

+ Work is SO GREAT, especially now that my boss has basically scheduled me opposite shifts as Difficult Coworker (because my boss: also really great). I don't have anything more substantial than that, just, I'm really enjoying my ridiculous life being a barista at an indie bookstore. Also I may have discovered that my ability to make good caffeinated drinks means I've become good at making mixed alcoholic drinks as well, although obviously this bears further investigation.

+ At the end of the month my cousin is getting married! I'm excited to see my family, especially my parents and my grandma, and my cousin's fiance is excellent, and ahhh what am I going to wear, I haven't figured this out at all! My dad told me to spike my hair (and to ... wear a collar? I think he's confusing queers with punks; that or he knows something about my personal life that I have never ever told him) and generally dyke it up, because he is a delightful human sometimes. Eh, I will figure it out.

+ So many delightful things are happening this fall!! Dessa is here in September, and Vienna Teng is here in October, and excellent boss is giving me off those closing/following opening shifts so I can 100% make those concerts. She is also giving me off October 10-12th, which means I can [a] GO TO THE NIGHT VALE LIVE SHOW ([personal profile] oliviacirce: the best fucking wingman ever, with tickets for us both) and [b] go to Friday New York ComicCon if I fancy. Still debating whether it's worth $50, but if you are going to be at NYCC, let me know! Having people to hang out with would greatly up my incentive to go.

+ I ... may have also been given off the close/open of November 7/8th for reasons of midnight Thor 2. HELL YES THIS GETS ITS OWN BULLET POINT. Okay, also in this bullet point I will say that my fic is trucking along nicely and I loooove it. Gonna be done in plenty of time for people to read it before Thor 2 Josses the hell out of it.

This list brought to you by, oh my god, this isn't even a list of things I'm being determinedly cheerful about, this is just genuinely how happy and excited about life I am today. :DDD
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