Despite it now being May, Massachusetts remains full of dismal grey rain. I really like this weather, within reason, but dammit, I'm supposed to be uncomfortably warm and slightly dazzled by sunlight right now, not feeling like a sad hibernating beastie. Because the weather won't get with the program, I think it's time for to list some things that are making me happy. (It may also be time for me to make a habit of this, maybe in a weekly way, to be good to myself.)

+ My job is really great! I like all my coworkers (even the slightly unfortunate seriously cishet white boy one, in large part because when all else fails we can talk about Lord of the Rings), and I like many of our regulars, and it's low-stress and happymaking and it may not be A Career but it makes some money and I actually like it, so I think on balance it's still a win.

+ [profile] filiabelalis is still the best sweetie, news at 11. My housemates and in fact all my local friends are really great; weekly D&D is the best (and made us all die a little laughing last week when a plot twist was revealed and [personal profile] songofsongs just thrashed around on the floor going "NOOOO" for five minutes straight); [personal profile] scribe is probably going to drag me to a number of womens' soccer games this season; my social life is just really good and fulfilling without being too overwhelming.

+ Avocados are in season! I mean, they're around all year but they're nice and fresh right now, and yes, they get their own bullet point, avocados are the food of the gods.

+ Captain America fandom is being wonderful! I'm going through fics quite slowly -- usually only about one a day, so tabs are definitely accumulating faster than I'm closing them. My latest favorite fic is your favorite ghost by augustbird; it's Steve/Bucky, and the official summary is It's harder than Steve ever expected to bring Bucky home, but it got me where I lived at the line The worst part of having Bucky back is that he doesn't.

+ AGENTS OF SHIELD CONTINUES TO BE BAFFLINGLY GOOD?? Spoilers just love Skye so muuuuch. )

+ WISCON IS SO SOON! I hope this year I will be enough out of my dazed sad fog to do con properly, but even if I'm not as extroverted as I'd like, it's still my favorite time of year, and I'm looking forward so much to seeing those of you who are going <333
aria: ([avengers] natasha)
( Apr. 15th, 2014 04:46 pm)
Happy Passover! Gondor is hosting a sedar tonight for our D&D group, though as far as I know we won't be holding it in character.

Meanwhile it's spring. The weather this week, as I understand it, is going to get miserably cold again, but at the moment we have the sort of blustering spring rain that makes me crave summer thunderstorms. I was walking home with my jeans and shoes soaking wet and I didn't even care, because summer is coming! At the cafe we're running through all our cold brew before noon and the poor ice machine can't keep up with demand, but all the customers are so happy, which is incredibly pleasant.

Mostly what I've been doing this week is having awful wrecking Winter Soldier feelings. I am not going to deny these feelings! (After Thor came out I spent this precious week going "Huh, what an interesting flash-in-the-pan investment I'm having! I'm sure it'll end soon," and this is the SAME LEVEL OF INTENSITY, by which I mean, lots.) I've read a post-film fic where a line of Natasha's made me tear up, and I've been making vids in my head and tearing up more because I just love Sam Wilson so much, and I really definitely cannot hold all these feels, so instead I'm reading Black Widow comics and feeling cranky about Hydra and trying to think of an action plot to hang my OT4 story on. (I'm also not going to make it 100k. I just. Nope. I'm hoping wistfully that it'll be under 50k instead, hahaha you fool it's never under 50k when you have this many feelings.)

I'm also. Hm. I'm having some complicated Bucky feelings? )

And I'm genuinely excited for new SHIELD /o\ I still think they haven't decided where they want to come down on the morality scale, but at least CAtWS made the question actually interesting, and I'm pretty psyched for the version of the show where these losers are running around like headless chickens trying to figure out who the hell their allies are. WE SHALL SEE.
So I saw Captain America 2 on opening night! And then I ... did not post about it, because it's been wall-to-wall houseguests all this week, but I did manage to see the movie a second time as well.

Spoilers are on your left. )

...Basically I just want to write long plotty OT4 fic now. Yep. :DDD
*taps* Is this thing on? Yes? Good.

Fandom participation is a weird thing for me right now, because at the moment my main fandom is ... the D&D campaign that Housemate A is running? I hear that often D&D campaigns are kind of cracky and fragmented and, while lots of fun, not full of really coherent narrative or character arcs; but we're a group consisting entirely of people who are really fannish and care a lot about character relationships and plot threads and so on, so we've been doing it ... very fannish RPG style, I guess. Shipping things and finding songs to give each other feels! I keep on making vids in my head! THERE IS NO FOOTAGE. But it's a lot of what my brain has been up to.

I've also been watching Leverage for the first time; we're two episodes from the series finale now, and I don't want it to ennnnd, but I do want every single Hardison/Parker/Eliot and/or perfect found family team fic; totally taking recs! Also probably going to comb through the AO3 with great enthusiasm. Other than that I'm not watching much telly; Sleepy Hollow is between seasons, I've sort of peaced out of both Elementary and White Collar until I can watch the whole season in a go, I'm rewatching all of Community by showing it to a friend, and I can't quite bring myself to keep going because Troy, and ... well, okay, I have been watching SHIELD.

Seriously, of all the shows, SHIELD is the one I'm keeping up with. I don't even fucking know either, but I have a lot of THOUGHTS. Yelling about SHIELD; some positive stuff, but mostly wailing about how the show really has to fucking decide whether its main characters are the good guys or not. )

Okay, so perhaps besides the D&D campaign, Marvel is still my current fandom. Oh, and I've been reading the Agent of Asgard comics! They are SUCH tumblr fodder, but I'm really okay with that; it's kind of fun to feel squarely within the target demographic. Loki writes slashfic! Loki is always herself! Loki makes bizarre One Direction jokes! Hell yes I'm paying $3 every couple of weeks for this.

Relatedly, does anyone know if the Thor 2 deleted scenes & assorted other whatever special features are anywhere to be found? Amazon seems to have DVDs and Blu Rays and all that good stuff, but none of them list any actual special features! C'mon, Marvel, I'm trying really hard to give you money, just give me something in addition to the movie in exchange! I'll probably just keep compulsively checking amazon, but this is a little silly.
aria: ([avengers] thor)
( Jan. 27th, 2014 07:15 pm)
Hey, Dreamwidth! I know, I don't call, I don't write, and I only stop by to give you Monday evening Thor/Loki porn, but perhaps that's what your Monday evening needed!

This takes place in the Find a Home universe, because what, like we're ever leaving there, it is the happy fork AU and we're going to play in it for ages.

the taste you were forever chasing, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Thor has said that nothing of Loki frightens him away; but there is a difference between tolerance and love, and Loki can't afford to hope.
My new year so far:

+ I had very pleasant shifts at the cafe; good tips, several super nerdy interactions with customers (including a little girl who had a Doctor Who book and told me her favorite Doctor was "Nine and Ten AND Eleven!")

+ Our D&D session last night was so great! Many shenanigans were had, and [personal profile] scribe's visiting BFF seemed to have a good time.

+ Amiel stayed over and as usual did that thing where they make amazing breakfast. So, due to snowstorm, instead of getting up at unreasonable hours to catch a bus to New York, I got up at perfectly reasonable hours and had snuggles and BACON.

+ It is the third bus I attempted to get a ticket for, but I'm on it and actively on my way to the couch con [personal profile] oliviacirce is hosting! By which I mean I'm sitting at the very front of the top level of the bus, watching the road go by below, listening to the Pacific Rim soundtrack and writing this on my phone and generally having a really good day.
Today I am twenty-six! I think I'll give myself a mocha from the cafe and watch Frozen this afternoon.

A few years ago my birthday was my decade-in-fandom milestone; this year I have spent half my life in fandom. Here's to keeping on :)
aria: ([misc] lessthanthree)
( Dec. 25th, 2013 10:30 am)
This year I'm not at my parents' house for Christmas, I didn't attend the UU holiday service, and there is no Yuletide fic waiting for me. Instead I was back from my parents' place in time for a sprawling hours-long gift exchange with my friends earlier this week (from which I emerged with a beautiful paper lantern and nice knitwear; Polaris also got a jar full of chocolate, and since both she and Housemate A are now halfway across the country with their own families, the chocolate is mine, all mine). We did a small apartment Christmas before they both left a few days ago. I spent a lot of yesterday at work, caffeinating people through their last desperate burst of holiday shopping, and various of us got small gifts from regulars; then I went home, and watched the Community Christmas episodes, and because I was far away from the UU holiday service, I asked YouTube to play me a choir singing Silent Night.

Today I'm going over to [personal profile] scribe's for Chinese takeout and a Lord of the Rings marathon, as one does. And I've had texts and calls from various friends and family, so even though it's just me, and I'm somewhere new and doing different things, it still does feel properly like the holiday.

Hope you all have a lovely Wednesday. <333
aria: ([misc] cocoa)
( Dec. 21st, 2013 10:49 am)
i. Christmas tree! )

ii. Visiting my parents was, as usual, a weird mix between my increasing frustration with their tolerant amusement re: issues I feel strongly about (though they will at least actually listen and ask questions about queer stuff), and the ability they both have to make me cry laughing because they're ridiculous people. I also mailed myself a bunch of stuff that was still in their house (very important stuff! like Beanie Babies!) and brought up some of the remainder of my clothes and books. It felt like getting a lot of new stuff for the holidays, even though it was mostly old stuff, because brains are cool like that.

iii. I continue to be the sort of person who goes out for drinks with coworkers and dresses up to go to work holiday parties and things? The work holiday party was pretty delightful, actually! Nothing of note happened or anything, but I did stand around in a room full of people and talked to them for three hours without wishing I was somewhere else, and I enjoyed myself, so SUCCESS.

iv. I saw the Hobbit earlier this week! It held together a lot better than the first installment, I was only cranky with one bit they left out, and I continue planning the edits I want to do in order to make a Just The Book (+ maybe some other parts I like??) cut when all three films are out. I kind of wish I had more feelings, but instead I just keep having lots of Avengers feelings, and resurgent due South feelings as Housemate A and I make our way through season two, and that's a pretty comfortable place to be, fannishly.

v. I just really like this time of year. We had so much snow, and then most of it melted, and though I'd love to have snow for Christmas, this is really nice too. I'm spending good time with people, and there are so many lights everywhere in the city, and ... I'm happy right now. It feels important to catalogue when I'm doing okay, so yes: I've spent the morning wrapping presents, and I made bacon and eggs-in-a-basket for myself and Housemate A like a goddamn adult who can cook meals, and I'm about to start my second cup of tea, and I'm happy.
I caught myself thinking "I have so many things to tweet about, but I don't really want to limit myself to soundbites," and then remembered that I have a Dreamwidth, c'mon, self. So here are some things I was going to tweet about, in more than 140 characters:

i. I have completed 90% of my holiday shopping for my parents! As usual I have fifty gift ideas for my mum and very few for my dad, so I'll try to just locate some nice chocolate for my dad and not go on some sort of tea and mugs and earrings rampage for my mum. I also have wrapping paper! And I should find some nice things for my housemates, and Jessie & co's white elephant gift exchange, and ... maybe for some other people? Idk, my general policy is to get physical gifts for in-person friends and bang out a few giftfics for fandom friends generally, but I actually have a lot of friends in the area this year, and lots of nice wrapping paper. Only my parents' stuff was urgent, though, as I'm going to see them next week. This weekend, though, the tree! (I really love December, and festival-of-lights gift-giving style Christmas. I would like some snow, though, c'mon, let's get winter up in here.)

ii. I have a new laptop! The old kind of broken one (m key hasn't worked for aaages, lid will no longer close because it was winching off slowly) is called Methos, which was apparently a terrible idea, because it kept dying but never stayed dead. I think I'm calling the new one Frigga, and it will hopefully be a much better-behaved immortal until its time comes. I haven't set it up yet, though, because that really feels like a day-long task to transfer all my files and get my music in order and make sure it has the right browsers and useful programs like VLC &c. It is also going to have much better processing power than my current one, which means it is time for me to LEARN HOW TO VID. Seriously, I want to try this! So, vidding friends: anyone know what vidding program would be good? Keep in mind that I'm still on a Windows OS, so all the nice Mac-only programs are right out.

iii. Speaking of vids! The Aims vid project, in which vidders are making a vid to each song on said Vienna Teng album. The latest is The Breaking Light, a Pacific Rim vid by [personal profile] such_heights, which I knew was going to slay me going in, because anytime she vids a Vienna Teng song I basically become a sobbing mess. That it's also Pacific Rim just made everything 1000% betterworse.

iv. And speaking of Vienna Teng, I had this theory that the song Never Look Away is just one of those great songs that is applicable to basically any pairing one is currently having feels about. I was fairly sure of this when I was having lots of Thor/Loki feels about it, and now I am entirely sure of it, because I've started showing Housemate A due South and suddenly Never Look Away was this ridiculous amazing torrent of all my old Fraser/Kowalski feelings. So yeah! I am showing Housemate A due South! We're still only in first season, and I'm enjoying it immensely; it's been at least two, possibly three, years since I watched it last, and oh gosh I just love it so much, what a perfect show to watch in the drawing-in of winter.

v. I hear there is a meme going around where you suggest topics and then I post a response to one a day! I ... really don't have the wherewithal to be that diligent, but if you like, please do comment with a topic, anything you like, and I'll choose some to talk about!
aria: ([white collar] burke family)
( Nov. 29th, 2013 10:03 am)
Yesterday was lovely! We had Hanukkah food for lunch, and Thanksgiving food for dinner, and a silly lazy day in between, inventing new rules for dreidel (eat one of your coins every time you get nun! and that, kids, is how we ate two entire bags of gelt right after lunch), and making a found family vid show.

I thought it might be nice to reproduce the vid show here, so I've written up the playlist. I am not entirely happy with it as a found family show -- I tried to make it mostly gen, but there are some shippy vids; I've overrepresented a couple vidders and don't have any vids by several more whose vids I love; I wish it included things like Buffy and Sleepy Hollow and Star Trek, all of which I have lots of found family feelings for but couldn't find appropriate vids. So this is not prescriptive at all, and I would love additional recs.

16 found family vids under the cut! )
I went to see Thor 2! I did not even go at midnight, but at the reasonable hour of 9 pm! And sdkhjgffg IT WAS SO GREAT.

Spoilers are a convergence. )

What I do know is that I need to see this film at least two more times and then write ... probably Loki/Thor/Jane fic with lots of Asgardian politics in. YEP.
aria: ([thor] loki liesmith)
( Nov. 6th, 2013 10:32 pm)
AND WE'RE DONE!!

We're done quite late because today was D&D day and we weren't ... quite finished editing before our session started, oops. But it's done now.

Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part eight; in which everyone copes with the aftermath of the war, and figures out how to be family.

(Previously: part one; part two; part three; part four; part five; part six; part seven)
aria: ([avengers] thor)
( Nov. 5th, 2013 06:10 pm)
THIS ONE IS QUITE SHORT.

Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part seven; in which the Avengers take the fight to Thanos.

(Previously: part one; part two; part three; part four; part five; part six)
aria: ([avengers] tony & steve)
( Nov. 4th, 2013 03:14 pm)
Posting early today, because I do what I want, Thor. Well, also because no one is home today and thus I wasn't at all distracted from editing.

Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part six; in which the Avengers fight a war.

(Previously: part one; part two; part three; part four; part five)
aria: ([avengers] natasha)
( Nov. 3rd, 2013 05:40 pm)
Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part five; in which there is an alien invasion and the Avengers make several difficult decisions regarding Loki.

(Previously: part one; part two; part three; part four)
aria: ([avengers] god of mischief)
( Nov. 2nd, 2013 04:02 pm)
Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part four; in which Thor continues bonding with the Avengers and makes a series of increasingly bad decisions regarding Loki.

(Previously: part one; part two; part three)
aria: ([thor] loki liesmith)
( Nov. 1st, 2013 04:44 pm)
Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part three; in which Thor makes friends, engages in cultural exchange, and completely fails to be a good brother.

(Previously: part one; part two)

Uh so this is the part of the fic at which I start going LOOK LOOK THIS FIC IS THE BEST THING AND YOU SHOULD LOOK AT IT. Seriously though there are Thor/Loki makeouts and also Steve and Thor go on the Colbert Report (but these things do not happen at the same time).
aria: ([avengers] tony & steve)
( Oct. 31st, 2013 06:06 pm)
Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part two; in which Thor fights several battles on Midgard and loses one with his mother.

(Previously: part one.)

...You guys, I feel like I'm not playing up this fic enough. But, like. First, we're at the exposition/buildup parts. Second, this was ... a year of Amiel and I having really intense Thor and Loki feelings at each other! I don't quite know what to say, so I'm mostly just sending our weird monster baby out into the world and then gazing at its hit count in between editing the later parts. But I do have a lot of feelings and I love this fic very much.
aria: ([avengers] god of mischief)
( Oct. 30th, 2013 04:56 pm)
Oh no oh no I have literally never been more jittery and ridiculous about posting a fic. BUT HERE IT IS.

Find a Home, by Aria & filiabelialis, Thor/Loki
Loki lets his head fall back, a despairing smile baring his teeth. "What do you mean by home?"

Part one; in which Thor realizes that things are not ideal on Asgard, and decides to steal Loki. There are eight parts total, and they'll be posted over the next week.

...now I will flee and maybe eat the rest of this pint of ice cream.
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